everything's crumbled... but as always, we got to rebuild from the ashes

rebuild from the ashes... haix... not again.

this blog has just been put up, so i'll slowly start adding stuff in...

erm, kinda just got grounded again... no more clubbing, no more camping, no more fun, for the moment ( sry guys)

and all cus i worked for my own money and spent almost all of it.
my dad says i got a spending issue, well maybe, but its my own money aint it?

oh well, i guess i cant have everything. so erm, no more fun for the moment. have to be a good boy again... gonna be real hard.

but oh well, shit always happens... especially in my life.

feeling so fucked up now... so fucked up that i just feel like slitting my wrist and bleeding to death. in that way, i do not need to answer to anybody, i do not need to please anybody, i do not need to make sure everyone's happy always, i do not need to think twice when doing anything, and i do not need to live.

haix... well, wad a fucked up way to start my new blog but i guess this is the only place i can really be true to myself. well, that's all for now. hope i dont do anything stupid tonight.
wish i was brave enough to do it and move on, away from this world. oh well, if i just werent so afraid of taking my own life.